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蘋果樹上的橙

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 17:24:16 GMT

this is such a beautiful lyrics,... a beautiful melody,.... a wonderful song.... :)
作曲/編曲: Yin@sense
填詞: 曰云@sense

紅綠襯托著這棵果樹長年也企著的果樹
候鳥在歇息想跟它結緣離開也算是緣
如命理註定每種遭遇為何傍晚有雪但是暖
春天冬天季節又轉兩個圈我也尚未耗損

「不甘於平凡如蘋果的香橙帶點浪漫然而可否換到驚嘆
還是顯得荒誕不配被愛流離孤單
誇張的容顏如王子的小販用身體示範身份就是任我揀潮流也推翻
誰人貶斥這種固執太礙眼」

紅葉要降落有點失落誰明這漂亮的一幕
候鳥又要走因牠都算忙誰知我也在忙
能活也盼望過得激盪若紅裳看厭了就換過
橙色這點會這樣悄悄發光這個就是我麼

Repeat「」

如浮沉在生活的瞬間要放膽懂得去揀
看哪位有心樂意為我平反

不甘於平凡如蘋果的香橙也許落難仍贏到驕傲的驚嘆
誰願張開雙眼都會為我停留一番
誇張的容顏如王子的小販用身體示範身份就是任我揀潮流太刻板
誰人貶斥這種固執閉著眼

其實我怕活得黯淡在彌留會悔恨灰燼都飄散

蘋果樹上的橙 @ Yahoo! Video

feel better after listening these songs! :D

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 22:51:49 GMT

this is such a fun song!

and you can use it for ordering!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 23:38:39 GMT

i am tired and depressed... is that a symptom of depression?

I am Blessed

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 06:12:04 GMT

In Miggish speaking, I had a super strawberry summer....

I am blessed.... and now, my favorite autumn is here.... wish me enjoy the hot espresso truffle time!
I love ya!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 05:35:38 GMT

自從看過一個三不回應後, ...
儘管有一兩秒鐘的失望,
但這是應當的答案吧。

我只奇怪自己那一剎的失望, 很無聊。

After a MSN counseling session...

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 17:45:58 GMT

Oh yes, now I found out I feel like I am being isolated, and no one cares.

that's why I don't feel like being part of them anymore.
I guess now I know how my sister feels....
it's not about right or wrong,
it may or may not be the fact, this is how i feel....
just it's a feeling that I need to cope with, and move on.

============================================
I barely tell anything about it, but ended up I talked to sheep, and it makes me more depressed.
i just want someone to acknowledge my feeling, but not judging my thought....
i know it may not be true... (as I already told in the first place), this is just how I feel...

I feel being isolated. that's it.
and fine, i will feel better tomorrow... how does it sound?! so no one needs to be worried.

Thursday, October 01, 2009

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 05:18:50 GMT

第二日，因為老細要上training的原故, 我會另一位intern 去左S.M.A.R.T. (Systemwide Mental Assessment Response Team) "一日遊"。我地跟住個心理醫生周圍走, 由精神醫院到中途病房到老人公寓到私人屋宇到送人去ER 到返返去精神病院.... 一日見左4個clients, 幫左6個病人.... 醫生話, 而家做社工 (是的, 他是一名社工), 唔係用case management, 而係輔導之餘仲要幫佢地life-management....
一日, 學左我成年既year 1 graduate school....

有人話做社工, 無用之餘仲千祈唔好入county, 因為county 一D 都幫唔到要幫既人
亦有人問: 咩做社工要讀書既咩....

我相信, 每個人都係睇到/ 留意到一d errors 先有呢一種既 comments.....
然而, 一竹篙唔可以打一船人既.... 我見到好多人為或policy 上既錯落之餘;
我都見到好多好好既社工努力地做好本份, 係自己可做既area 上幫助每一個遇到既case.....

我無改變世界既能力, 亦無辦法去改變每個人既不同睇法;
本身超唔鍾意做社工: 無$多野做但又未必rewarding;
但我居然行緊呢個方向....
做好本份, 應該係最重要的.. 不過.... 真係好鬼驚自己唔夠料 ... ><"

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 16:55:45 GMT

26 歲半的生命應該係點?
活在"merging adulthood" 的理論下, 我還在讀書中...
碩士生只是一個虛號, 人生還有很多學問處於生活中, 而非學園中。

幸好學問有很多條平衡線, .....

距離

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 17:27:49 GMT

怪怪的... 最近和任何人, 事和物都好像有一段距離似的...
明明很近, 但很遠...

Friday, September 25, 2009

Fri, 25 Sep 2009 05:54:56 GMT

It is weird. I feel somewhat isolated from my k-peers (don't get me wrong, it's more like a natural expression, and probably a mutual way... don't take it negatively). I watched the first video for the coming fellowship, and I am going to read some more... but just.... I don't feel connected somehow. It's been a while tho... that I don't feel connected. I don't know why.... weird. I guess a real distance does impact relationships....
Besides, school is starting, and I am nervous. Although I passed my qualified exam and get "promote" to be regular official, I am not sure if I will be able to handle full time schooling + 20 something hours per week. I am scared and scared. But I am fearfully and wonderfully made, so I can only fear for only one almighty God.... Dear God, please take away my anxiety.