It's been a emo and stressful month... I tried my best to manage my life as balanced as possible, but I guess I failed to do so as I was told that I am stressing others out too.  I did my best I could. Although I don't expect people to give me some compliments, at least I don't want to get yelled. But as reality... I have been taking emotions from clients, supervisor, friends, future-in-law.... and at the same time, I have tons of work on my plate that seems never been able to get done. Instead of people tell me what I have done wrong or I could have done it better, I wished to be understood too. I remember one of the golden wisdom of "seek to understand than to be understood." I tried hard, yet I was also told that I already give out a wound. Instead of telling others how "innocent" I am, I truly wish if I could talk to the one I hurt and resolve the conflict. I do not have a chance, and ... I continued to hear what I could have done better statements... which make me even more depressed and sad. 

I am angry, I am frustrated, I feel like not being understood, I feel like being judge, I feel........ and overall I have enough non-productive negative energy that I no longer want to take it anymore.

I am done being unproductive. I know I can do better then this!

"Keep your heart will all diligence, for out of it is the wellspring of life." -Proverb 4:23